Pondered the days where my dreams always roaming freely,
Through the stillness of the dawn,
Where coldness of the air gently poked my conscience,
Pleading, crying with honest tears, asking for the world,
Then, I would ask myself...am I worthy to be?

All of these past years
I'd never thought the mountains could turn easily into a long exhausting road,
Which looks as if there are no obstacles on the empty straight way,
But the spiny dark gangways surrounding it
causes my legs to felt wonky,
my steps started to lost it ways,
I realized I have no choice neither to turn away nor keep moving.

Pondered where my spirit had gone,
Where once only dead threats could put me down,
Why upon getting up and down this long empty road it suddenly became unsure?
I've prepared once,
to hike on the mountains and dives through endless sea of thoughts,
but haven't I thought a long empty road could be this tricky and hard.

Where all the hearts are soulless
Where there are no true definition of love
Where kindness has been misunderstood as greed,
Where there are nothing but selfish desires,
Where there are no difference between the aged and the youth,
Where there are none but threats of ugly truth about me,
Where lies are trusted but truth are to be kept,

I asked myself,
Where could the future of tomorrow be thrust in my palm?
A palm which can't have a tight grip in its own life,
A palm that is free to let go anytime, anywhere..
Why in the world could I be trusted with something as precious as the future of tomorrow?
I am a but a victim of my past,
Thrown and abandoned on my own,
Barely able to breath my thoughts in words,
Barely able to walk on my own,
Barely able to see on my own,
Barely able to do everything on my own...
Am i worthy of holding the future of tomorrow in a short four years?
Learning freely unstruggling unpaid unsaid unpain unable..
Left by hopes that my fears will become my strenght, my egos will be altered and my pains wil be a guidance towards the light at the end of the gangway of this long spiny road.

It's easier to see someone's characteristics on the outside,
But can you really see the pains that livin inside?

All the hardworks, the tears and blood,
Can someone really put everything they get through into an account?
is it important for you to see it?

It's easier to say
"Because she never get through anything to occupy her time"
Well yes true!
I never did filled my time with everything you did because I know my limit, my ablities and what is it which worth my time...
I keep things personally because I know words can't desribe what actually I've been through
I don't have to tell the world,
For me one person which worth the world is enough to mean the world for me..

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window
Dreaming of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray

Trying hard to reach out
But when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I prayed I could break away

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes 'til I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I love
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get on board a fast train
Travel on a jet plane far away
And breakaway

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging 'round revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me
But gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, breakaway

I'll spread my wings
And I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway, breakaway, breakaway

Do you think physical bully is the most cruel thing?
I personally think, psychologically bully does most damage to one person.
Psychological bully includes WORDS!
your harrasment through words, spreading rumors about people that U felt insecure about,
so many things you can do with your words.
If you really think, it was alright to say something just because you think it was correct,
You girl, have problems.
Mentally, u're damaged. Please change, you know who you're if U tends to talk about your other 'friend' whenever U felt insecure, less motivated because of her not her misbehave towards U,
she practically never done anything towards U but U seems to have problems with her,
then YOU can't stop hurting her feelings just because U think she was wrong all the time.
She may did something wrong to you a few time, but hey, U DID TOO!
STOP BULLYING!!
it may happen to you one day, not you, your children and great great grandchildren...
what you give, you payback.
What's wrong with being good with everyone?
you don't have to go around and make yourself felt good after you spill rumors and badmouth others in front of her own friends.
Guess what? You're sick.
You just feel confident and happy under someone's else sadness.
Yes, if U're READING this, I want you to know,
You're Nothing to that person you tell people about,
so did to those people.
Remember, who was there with you since the first place and you started to
spread rumors and bad things just because you felt insecure.
You're more weak than that person.


                                                        By,
                                              the girl who experienced bullying all her life.
                                             (This was her suicide note)





See? how bullying affect many aspect of people's life. If you think this as a phase of growing up, it was not AND WILL NEVER BE.

The Law of Attraction. READ THIS!!

The law of attraction is not a magic wand. Because the brain preferentially scans and stores negative experiences, we have to consciously, habitually build the positive mental muscle. We all have layers and layers of stories, limiting beliefs, fears and blocks that have become the interior landscape of our minds and cannot be changed overnight just by thinking positive thoughts.

In order to become a master at manifesting with the law of attraction, we have to undo the patterns that have been stored in our unconscious and replace them with positive, empowering patterns. In other words, rewire the brain.

It may sound complicated, but it's not. By implementing daily positive practices in our lives, we will shift and raise our energetic vibration so that we can manifest from a place of calm, inspired action yielding faster results. If you get into the habit of using tools that will insert empowering and positive thoughts into your mind, you'll be poised to produce good experiences and results! Here are nine habits you can implement in your daily life right now to start activating manifesting energy:

1. Note what you focus on. Start by paying attention to what you focus on. Do you pay attention to what's going right, or what's going wrong? When you're working on manifesting your dreams, obstacles and challenges will arise, but when you focus on what's right, you become an incredible problem-solver, which builds confidence and quickly raises your energetic vibration. You will move through obstacles quicker.

2. Keep a worry list. Since the brain is Velcro for negative experiences; it is natural that we worry so much. It's just the brain's tendency. Keep a worry list for 2 weeks. The minute you start to worry write it down. This not only helps release the heavy energy that often keeps us stuck, but at the end of 2 weeks you will notice none of the worries were warranted. Your brain will have proof that worry is a waste of energy.

3. Practice diaphragmatic breathing. Breathe from the belly, not the chest. This type of breathing activates the parasympathetic nervous system (rest-and-digest), which helps produce a sense of relaxation and contentment and allows us to be calm and clear when taking inspired action.

4. Quiet the monkey mind with meditation. Meditation quiets the monkey mind, which is naturally biased toward negativity. Meditating does NOT mean you stop thinking. It simply means the grip around your thoughts softens. Meditation helps us withdraw attention from stressful, negative patterns we've created over time.

5. Move your body in whatever way feels good to you. Negative emotions get stored in our bodies on a cellular level. Moving is one way to release stress and negative energy. It doesn't have to be intense; you can dance, practice yoga or go for a walk.

6. Keep a gratitude journal. Gratitude is one of the simplest ways to raise our vibration. When we recognize our great fortune and appreciate all our blessings, it automatically puts us in a "feel-good" energetic vibration.

7. Write down your goals and connect to your "why. “Writing  your goals will not only help you get clear, but will help you create inspired action steps toward your dreams. Connecting to your "why" means connecting to the feeling that achieving the goal will give you. When we connect to the "why," we raise our vibration and become magnets for attracting the people, circumstances, etc. that will help us achieve our goal.

8. Visualize what it will look like when you achieve your dreams. Read your written goals first thing in the morning and before going to bed at night; then take five minutes to visualize and connect with the feeling of achieving your dreams. Get it into your subconscious mind!

9. Feel like you already have what you want.

Be like a kid who allows no impossibility to enter her manifesting realm. "Feeling" helps us release any doubt and negative energy. It generates excitement and positive feelings, which support us to take inspired action! So go test drive that car you want, or feel what it will be like to have the perfect partner in your life, because feeling is believing!

我爱你我的丈夫永远直到永恒

          Setahun yang lalu, kami berkunjung ke sebuah pusat pemulihan remaja perempuan. Penemuan dengan mereka membuatkan hati ini terkejut dan sedih kerana apabila melihat wajah-wajah mereka semuanya kelihatan ayu dan lembut, jauh sekali daripada sangkaan saya wajah bengis dan ganas. Pada ketika itu,  kelihatan beberapa orang bayi comel yang masih merah kerana ibunya baru saja melahirkan. Apabila ditanyakan oleh saya apa rancangan mereka untuk anak-anak mereka ini, mereka merancang untuk menjaga anak mereka sehingga besar, menyekolahkan dan merawat sampai bila-bila. Saya bertanya kepada salah seorang penjaga di situ, adalah mungkin para ibu muda ini dapat menjaga anak-anak mereka dalam keadaan mereka juga masih di bawah jagaan keluarga.

         Kemungkinan besar mereka tidak dapat menjaga anak mereka, bayi yang dilahirkan ini akan dihantar di bawah jagaan keluarga yang layak dari segi ekonomi dan sebagainya. Hal ini demikian kerana mereka perlu meneruskan hidup sebagai remaja, berkahwin dan memulakan hidup baharu. Satu kenyataan yang pahit dan kelat untuk ditelan oleh seorang ibu walaupun melahirkan anak dalam keadaan yang sebegitu. Mereka juga menyatakan kerisauan mereka terhadap masa depan anak-anak mereka yang lahir tanpa ayah, bagaimana pandangan masyarakat kita terhadap anak-anak ini?

         Satu stigma yang susah untuk dibuang daripada sesetengah orang mengenai anak luar nikah adalah mereka jijik dan kotor. Apalah dosa anak-anak syurga ini? Sering juga tidak mendapat hak sepatutnya, mungkin kita tidak perlu menjadi seperti negara Barat menganggap kelahiran dan seks luar nikah sebagai satu kebiasaan, tetapi kita perlu belajar menerima anak-anak yang lahir daripada ibu dan ayah yang berdosa tidak pernah berdosa pada pandangan Allah S.W.T. Ramai mengatakan kita tidak perlu memberikan perlindungan dan sebagainya kepada golongan ibubapa muda yang seperti ini, tetapi di mana ibu dan ayah saat-saat mereka memerlukan? Ada dalam kalangan mereka sekalipun keluarga tidak datang berkunjung, kita mendidik untuk mereka belajar menerima diri mereka, dan apakah usaha orang sekeliling untuk menerima mereka? Mereka yang telah belajar daripada kesilapan yang lalu, pengalaman mendewasakan , betulkah?